Seeing the beauty

How awkward is this... 
To ask for help is apparently a sign of strength, or so they say. I dont know if it is true or not. What I do know is that I need help. 
To hear the following: "you need an operation or else you will lose your sight in around 6 months". Is not the way you want to end a regular eye test. But that turned out to be my reality this week. I smiled and thanked the optimitrist, walked out payed for the test, walked to my car got in and took a breath and just like that all the emotions hit at once. The drive back to the office was blurry as tears seem to come in waves. Hearing my voice saying look at everything around you and dont just look see, really see everything. The ocean was a teal green and the sky looked almost to blue. I havent stop seeing since then I'm looking at the sunset diffrent seeing brids, insects, trees and grass even weeds looks pretty!
So here goes. Please help me. I have lenticular sclerosis in both eyes, but my right eye is bad and I have about 6 months to get the operation otherwise the d...