I want to keep going
- By: Jaylin de Klerk
- Short URL: https://www.backabuddy.co.za/jaylin-de-klerk
My name is Jaylin, but I'm also known as JT by some. I'm 23, and live in Gauteng. I'm a psychology student completing my honours this year, and hopefully studying a certificate in education next year. Working with children who have special needs is a passion of mine.
I've been through so much in my life. My parents worked hard to send me to one of the best schools, and I've worked even harder to pay them back in academic achievement. I've graduated from one of the top universities with distinction, and am completing my honours year in Psychology.
My dad was diagnosed with severe delayed onset Post Traumatic Stress Disorder when I was about 12. In my confusion and helplessness, I found myself isolated and desperate for someone else who understood. I found that person, who later emotionally abused me, and made me believe my body was worth only one thing. I went through other relationships; I went through emotional abuse with boyfriends, friends and home. Even with depression and my own PTSD, I never let it completely sway my academic marks.
Ever since my dad's diagnosis, and probably even before, psychology just called to me. It was always my top subject, it was always my passion. I've also always felt the need to help others, so I started my own facebook page called PTS Teens, for other kids and teenagers with family members diagnosed with PTSD. I later began to au pair a little girl with severe autism and her brother with severe ADHD, and I fell in love with special needs children.
Then, as my honours year progressed, I was introduced to even more fields and branches of psychology. Neurocognitive psychology fascinated me. The brain was no longer an organ, it was a living organism on its own that did so much. Now I can't help but wonder what could happen if I combine that with children in need.
But finances got in my way. I managed to earn a bursary from the university this year, but changing modules to do what I love has unexpectedly charged me money I don't have. With my studies, I've been tutoring, babysitting, au-pairing and even making jewellery, all to try and help fund general life. I've gone through the stages of eating baked beans from the tin and having to knock my pride and ask my mother or boyfriend for money. I thought with all the work I've put in, it would come around in reward somehow.
But rent has to be paid. The car has to be paid. The stress of everything landed me in the hospital for two days so that has to be paid. I hope to study a teaching degree next year to become closer to children, and closer to my ultimate passion. But I don't know if I'll be able to afford it in the long run.
I'm trying so hard to make ends meet on my own, but today I swallow my pride to ask for a little help.If I could reach my target, I will finally be able to breathe a bit easier.
I will be able to further my studies, and hopefully go back into studying psychology at a later stage. I will be able to help my family, so I no longer make them worry about making ends meet.
R4800 has to be paid to the university because I changed modules to follow my passion in cognitive neuropsychology. I was not told that this would cost me, and I thought my bursary would cover it. Without covering this cost, I may not be able to graduate. But I'm making small dents in it as I go along with my work as a tutor and babysitter.
Excess funds will be used to wipe all debt my family has racked up, mostly because of my own medical bills with therapy sessions, medication and my hospital stay.
*As per the campaign creator's request, funds raised will be transferred directly to Wits university.*