Please help to buy back pawned laptop Campaign

My spirit is at the lowest it bern ever. 

Im scared and i could need a buddy. 

This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I'm a giver, not a taker, but I'm at my wit's end and I need help.

I'm struggling to keep head obove water. I'm behind on accounts and bills and I'm barely putting food on the table. I had to pawn my laptop to pay for basic necessities.

I know I've always been the one giving in the past, and I hate myself for where i am. But I'm truly desperate. I'm working side hustle e, but it's though not having a startup to cover all of my expenses.

I dont know how to ask cause i never had to. But never say nevet

I know this is a lot to ask, but I would be so grateful for any help. I'm so low right now, and I don't know what else to do.

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