Help me become a mom Campaign

When I married my husband, my life was blessed with the most amazing 4 year old twins. Being a mom to them has awakened a deep yearning to have a child of my own, someone who is half me and half the love of my life.

We had been trying for 3 years, when earlier this year we were able to do a round of IVF. I was blessed to become pregnant on the first try, but sadly miscarried at 11 weeks.

After consultation, it has been determined that I may never carry a child to term because of varies co-morbidities and have been advised to consider surrogacy. I am between a rock and a hard place, it is something no-one ever wants to hear, as a woman, you do not want to hear that you cannot do the one thing you were born to do.

Surrogacy is a very expensive journey and although the surrogate does not get paid, getting the legal paperwork drawn up and cover all medical expenses and loss of income of the surrogate is not something we can afford.

Asking for help is not something that comes to me easily, I am the suffer in silence, suffer alone type. But my heart breaks every second. It is extremely difficult to imagine never holding my own bundle of joy, never feeling that mother child bond everyone talks about. Nothing else matters more to me than having a baby, I don’t need anything else, I don’t want anything else, there is no consolation prize here, there is no substitute. I am not asking for help, I am begging for it, desperately begging for people, kind strangers, good Samaritans, to please help me realise my dream of becoming a mom.